1. JUDAS MIND

It seems you believe in the words as tokens

Your heart still succumbs to the fear unspoken

And some, I know, are filled with courage

But most, I know, will not be chosen

 

But don’t feel afraid as the storm blows this way

Know that truth can’t fail us – can’t enslave us

But don’t feel afraid as the storm blows this way

Know that truth can’t fail us – can’t enslave

 

In dreams we escape to a world unbroken

And those whom we hate will become awoken

And some, I hope, will die as martyrs

But most ovine souls will end in slaughter

 

But don’t feel afraid as the storm blows this way

Know that truth can’t fail us – can’t enslave us

But don’t feel afraid as the storm blows this way

Know that truth can’t fail us – you can’t

 

Shut your eyes (as you surround me with pain)

Judas mind (as you betray me again)

Take your time (as you surround me with pain)

Judas mind (as you betray me again)

 

But don’t feel afraid as the storm blows this way

(Tell me it’s okay, tell me it’s alright, lead me to shelter, black out the sunlight)

Know that truth can’t fail us – can’t enslave us

But don’t feel afraid as the storm blows this way

(Tell me it’s okay, tell me it’s alright, lead me to shelter, black out the sunlight)

Know that truth can’t fail us – you can’t

 

Shut your eyes (as you surround me with pain)

Judas mind (as you betray me again)

Take your time (as you surround me with pain)

Judas mind (as you betray me again)

 

 

2. ILLUSION

(Pronounce me a killer then drown me in shame)

 

Well you reek of delusion, regret is clouding your brain

Now you reap the pollution that’s been sown in your veins

 

You create the illusion, desecrate all the faith left in my mind

You create the confusion, then erase all these sound intentions

 

You embrace the infusion to keep the sickness detained (Fuck that shit)

Propogate the obsession that feeds the rabid ordained

 

You create the illusion, desecrate all the faith left in my mind

You create the confusion, desecrate all the well-intended signs

 

Did you have to heed the killers?

 

Why? How could you fall for the lies?

 

You create the illusion, desecrate all the faith left in my mind

You create the confusion, then erase all these sound intentions

 

Why? Why?

 

 

3. BENEATH THE VEIL

Elation eludes me always, an empty shell within

Salvation can leave me open but where do I begin?

I find that this heart grows colder, shallow breathing in

Damnation will cure the hunger crawling on your skin

 

I noticed blood upon your pillow

 

I seek the will to be alive (I doubt that I’ll find it)

Beneath the veil another broken person

 

Stagnation will hold you over until the bitter end

Sedation will hold you closer, become your only friend

I find when the mind gets bolder it only makes you bend

That demon who’s on your shoulder waiting to expend

 

I noticed blood upon your pillow

 

I seek the will to be alive (I doubt that I’ll find it)

Beneath the veil another broken person

I need to keep the pain inside (that’s where I hide it)

I bleed the vein to cleanse the sacred poison

 

Well now I’m dying to know

Why do those bruises still show?

Well now I’m dying to know

 

I noticed blood upon your pillow

The kind you can’t even explain away

 

I seek the will to be alive (I doubt that I’ll find it)

Beneath the veil another broken person

I need to keep the pain inside (that’s where I hide it)

I bleed the vein to cleanse the sacred poison

Sacred poison

Sacred poison

 

 

4. SEMBLANCE OF ME

Well I guess I make you nervous, and I’d probably feel the same

In the end it serves a purpose – I’m just a moth to the flame

When a scratch becomes a lesion I like to turn the eye that’s blind

You create a better version of me but oh, it’s all a lie

 

I succumb to the feelings that I’ve never owned

I just keep them inside me

And now it feels like I’m peeling the flesh from my bones

Let my soul break free

 

An imitation of a person, who’s never sure who they should be

Well maybe I can use this version and be, become a semblance of me

Time to smear the wounds with ointment, wrap the bandage nice and tight

Then embrace the disappointment that was stolen from a child

 

I succumb to the feelings that I’ve never owned

I just keep them inside me

And now it feels like I’m peeling the flesh from my bones

Let my soul break free

 

It’s always the same

I’ll just fucking break this

I’ll just fucking break this

I’ll just fucking break this

I’ll just fucking break this

I’ll just fucking break this

 

I succumb to the feelings that I’ve never owned

I just keep them inside me

And now it feels like I’m peeling the flesh from my bones

Let my soul break free

I succumb to the feelings that I’ve never owned

I just keep them inside me

And now it feels like I’m peeling the flesh from my bones

Let my soul break free

 

 

5. WALLS COME DOWN

I still remember the day that you entered my world

Filled with splendor, a light in the darkness unfurled

Well I figured it out, the louder they shout, the more I fall

I’m reliving it now, the essence of how I’ll lose this all

 

So take this doubt and grant me something more

I won ‘t last without a reason to endure

 

For now and ever, I can’t help but get in my way

I feel the pressure, the imminent cloud of dismay

Well the quicker I find a peace in my mind, then I’ll feel sane

But the thicker the grime, the deeper the shine I can’t reclaim

 

So take this doubt and grant me something more

I won ‘t last without a reason to endure

Don’t mistake me now for an empty shell, unsure

When the walls come down we’re left with something pure

 

I still remember the day that you entered my world

Filled with splendor, a light in the darkness unfurled

Well I figured it out, the louder they shout, the more I fall

I’m reliving it now, the essence of how I’ll lose this all

 

So take this doubt and grant me something more

I won ‘t last without a reason to endure

Don’t mistake me now for an empty shell, unsure

When the walls come down we’re left with something pure

No we don’t belong out here

No we don’t belong out here

No we don’t belong out here

No we don’t belong out here

 

 

6. TRY TO HEAL

It always works out the same, I’m never in on the game

And no one’s held to account for their part in the blame

So hold me down, hands on my throat – declare your love then choke me out

It’s all my fault, I should have known how to make you feel better

 

It’s making so much sense to me now

It’s tragic ’cause it felt to real

This ending is it’s own beginning

Now I can finally try to heal

 

And all throughout this embrace you smile then spit in my face

Although I want to believe I know words are in vain

So hold me now and whisper lies – just stay a while? I’d rather die

It’s all my fault, I know I’ve shown that I’m just dead inside

 

It’s making so much sense to me now

It’s tragic ’cause it felt to real

This ending is it’s own beginning

Now I can finally try to heal

 

Now this is just an epitaph and you won’t ever own me

‘Cause I have been to hell and back with a pocket full of posies

All fall down

All fall down

All fall down

All fall down

 

It’s making so much sense to me now

It’s tragic ’cause it felt to real

This ending is it’s own beginning

Now I can finally try to heal

It’s making so much sense to me now

It’s tragic ’cause it felt to real

This ending is it’s own beginning

Now I can finally try to heal

 

All fall down

All fall down

All fall down

All fall down

 

 

7. PAINT THE WORLD

Those cold eyes make me shiver – they mould minds to ruin their lives

Oh no we can’t let them decide the age of consent for pedicide

(Here comes the schism)

 

We’re never given a say (as they paint the world with lies)

Their sickness out on display (they don’t feel the need to hide)

 

Throw them into the river with a stone tied around their necks

Oh, what a bunch of parasites safe in the towers where the hide

(Here come the schism)

 

We’re never given a say (as they paint the world with lies)

Their sickness out on display (they don’t feel the need to hide)

Until we’re making them pay (remove the scales from your eyes)

Now we covet the day (when the bones will feed the flies)

 

It’s about to get loud, and you’re all disavowed

I’m about to expound – I’m taking every one of you down, down

 

We flow like the wind in the heather, we live where the sun don’t shine

We know how to maim the abettors, we know how to cull the swine

We flow like the wind in the heather, we live where the sun don’t shine

We know how to maim the abettors, we know how to cull the swine

 

We’re never given a say (as they paint the world with lies)

Their sickness out on display (they don’t feel the need to hide)

Until we’re making them pay (remove the scales from your eyes)

Now we covet the day (when the bones will feed the flies)

We’re never given a say (as they paint the world with lies)

Their sickness out on display (they don’t feel the need to hide)

Until we’re making them pay (remove the scales from your eyes)

Now we covet the day (when the bones will feed the flies)

 

 

8. SAME MISTAKES

You make me feel like the failure I’ve become

You’re breaking a fever while shutting out the sun

 

Beneath the heel I feel like a broken little boy

Beneath the heel I feel like there’s nothing to enjoy

But don’t it always come to pass that all we know ain’t real?

Don’t it always seem to lack when the ending is revealed?

 

Now I keep making the same mistakes again and losing all by myself

I keep making the same mistakes again, the world left without me

 

The teeth I show are meant to warn off enemies

The teeth I show are meant to scare them – make them flee

But don’t it always come to pass that all the hate you feel

Is centered on the ones you care for, the ones who make you kneel

 

Now I keep making the same mistakes again and losing all by myself

I keep making the same mistakes again, the world left without me

Now I keep taking the same escape again, abusing my mental health

I keep taking the same escape again, good reason to doubt me

 

Now I keep making the same mistakes again

Now I keep making the same mistakes again

 

Now I keep making the same mistakes again and losing all by myself

I keep making the same mistakes again, the world left without me

Now I keep taking the same escape again, abusing my mental health

I keep taking the same escape again, good reason to doubt me

(And losing all by myself)

 

 

9. LOST ALL CONTROL

Speak your mind. Oh, you’re no friend of mine.

Feast your eyes on poor helpless concubine

 

What have I done to myself?

What have I done to myself?

 

Now I’m alone and it feels like I’ve lost all control

I need to go home and salvage what’s left of my soul

 

Reveal your guise, oh, you’re so serpentine

I feel reviled, it seems it’s all by design

 

What have I done to myself?

 

Now I’m alone and it feels like I’ve lost all control

I need to go home and salvage what’s left of my soul

 

These waves they keep crashing around me

The pain weaves a broken symphony

This rage has taken hold of me

The pain won’t let me let go of myself

 

Now I’m alone and it feels like I’ve lost all control

I need to go home and salvage what’s left of my soul

Now I’m alone and it feels like I’ve lost all control

 

 

10. DEAD ON THE VINE

I have to endure assaults on my mind or wither away and then die on the vine

I used to be pure, I used to be kind, but now all I feel is a hatred inside

I like it before, I hate it this time, I felt like the worm on the end of the line

This moment is fitting, so goddamn divine and now I’m a broken vessel

 

So who gets to shake me now

Oh who gets to cut me down

Oh who gets to break me then pillage and rape me

Then leave me alive somehow, oh

 

No I don’t deserve the things that feel good, and I don’t behave in the way that I should

These lessons were learned and kept from childhood, emotionally stunted – I fell where I stood

I tried it before and failed it this time – I felt like a coward that’s missing a spine

This moment is fleeting, no love for myself, and I’m the unspoken asshole

 

So who gets to shake me now

Oh who gets to cut me down

Oh who gets to break me then pillage and rape me

Then leave me alive somehow, oh

 

Who gets to shake me now

Well who gets to cut me down

Oh who gets to break me then pillage and rape me

Then leave me alive somehow

 

Who gets to shake me now

Oh who gets to cut me down

Oh who gets to break me then pillage and rape me

Then leave me alive somehow

So who gets to shake me now

(Why do you keep me down?)

Oh who gets to cut me down

(Why do you keep me down?)

Oh who gets to break me then pillage and rape me

Then leave me alive somehow

(Why do you keep me down?)

Down.

 

 

11. REGRET

I still remember your name, the sound of your voice, the smell of your clothes

I know that things aren’t the same but given the choice I wish that you’d froze

Well it’s always the blame, it seems to rejoice whenever I’m low

I know that these are the ways to keep out the noise when my mind slows

 

So don’t, don’t make me come home yet

Let me steep in my regret – I’ve seen the ways that love can pass for hate

 

I still remember the pain, it follows me close, wherever I go

I stow the feelings away and try to compose whatever I show

Well it’s always the same and everyone knows what’s written on my stone

I know that these are the days, it’s starting to show, I’ve never quite flown

 

So don’t, don’t make me come home yet

Let me steep in my regret – I’ve seen the ways that love can pass for hate

 

I’m sick of the pain

I’m sick of the pain

I’m sick of the pain

I’m sick of the pain

I’m sick of the shame

I’m sick of the shame

I’m sick of the shame

I’m sick of the shame

I’m sick of it

 

So don’t, don’t make me come home yet

Let me steep in my regret – I’ve seen the ways that love can pass for hate

So don’t, please don’t let me forget, how I played with ill intent

I’ve been the reason love has passed for hate

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